Dark Paradise

The beginning of this blog post may sound a bit depressing, but please read on because I promise it actually has a semi-happy ending ;)

Heartbreak really changes a person sometimes. When someone we love suddenly decides to leave us one day, they take a part of us with them, whether we like it or not. We will never get that part of us back, and that is why we are never the same people after experiencing a breakup.



Even though I've had quite a few boyfriends and flings over the years, there was only ever one person that I ever truly loved. He was the only one that I gave my whole self and my whole heart to. When that particular relationship ended, it completely changed me as a person. I became very emotionally detached from people and I started to put my trust in nobody but myself. I built invisible walls around myself and I was all alone on one side, while my family, friends, and even God were on the other. I refused to let anybody in. Sure, it may have been lonely, but at least I was also safe. Nobody could love me but nobody had the power to hurt me either.



I thought that the walls I had built were strong enough to last for a lifetime. So imagine my surprise when I realized recently that someone is slowly breaking them down.


To be honest, I'm afraid to love again simply because I'm afraid to get hurt again. But love is all about taking risks, isn't it?

I think we all have our own versions of that "ideal guy". For me, it's someone who's British, tall, has a dangerous side yet still manages to make me feel safe, plays the guitar, looks very "disheveled" like he doesn't shower yet smells divine, not too handsome but very appealing, and has a sexy accent.

The strange thing is, the person I'm slowly falling for now is not at all like my ideal guy. Go figure. . . I guess it's really not up to us who we end up loving.



GOLD PYRAMID BLAZER from Tomato
BLACK SHIRT from Chinatown
RIPPED SKINNY JEANS from Forever 21
RED 35CM CLEMENCE BIRKIN from Hermes
WHITE J12 WATCH from Chanel
LEOPARD-PRINT OXFORDS from Sewn

What do you guys think of this outfit? I tried to go for a "dark glamour" kind of look. I've wanted this beautiful blazer for a while and finally bought it a few days ago. I kept the rest of the look toned down and wore my new leopard oxfords to add a pop of color.



I really like the pattern on the blazer, especially at the back. Since it's Christmas season already, I figured that the gold color would be quite appropriate.



And on that note, I end this blog post. Happy Holidays everyone! Comments are very much appreciated. I read each and every one!

xo





28 comments:

  1. Your blazer is so eye catching! :) i love it. And by the way, i can totally relate with what you said. I think i'm also falling for someone who is not even my ideal kind of guy. Hahaha.

    xoxo,
    SHAIRA
    www.missdream-girl.blogspot.com

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  2. love your outfit dear the shred pants and the shoes is really cute. I agree with you heartbreaks can mold and strengthen a person. Sometimes we have to deal with stuffs like that in order for us to measure our strength as a person. hope you can visit my blog too =) http://anotsosecretlife2011.blogspot.com/

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  3. aww you should give that new man a chance, who knows? he might be the person you're looking for afterall :) Anyways, you're totally rocking that blazer!

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  4. It's not love if you're not taking risks. The only way to find out is to go for it! :) Totally love your blazer!

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  5. Hi Kylie! I'm glad to see that you have a new post again. You know that I'm one of your regular readers. Anyway, I feel you. I think I misplaced my heart somewhere, I need to find it again. Got my heart broken once too. :( But I'm okay now. I used to have a twisted dating lifestyle after it was broken but now my dating status is on hiatus. Hahahaha! Wow! Your ideal man is so fine. I have a thing for brits too. :">

    Your outfit is really great! I really adore how you rock your OOTDs with Blazers. <3 Have a great week! xxx

    High Heels, High Standards

    shekinahjoy.com

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  6. Love your outfit and I think you should go for the dude. It might be totally worth it. I think everybody has be on the side of heartbreak which by the way is more painful that having a surgery (am not kidding) but Love is the most beautiful thing on earth and everyone deserves to be loved.

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  7. We love the blazer! it is so unique. Thank you for sharing your story with us by the way! It seems that most of the time, we end up with someone who doesn't fit what you typically would classify as your ideal guy. good luck

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  8. Hello (: Really pretty blog, good to read :)
    Would you like to follow each other on GFC and facebook? Let me know if you follow, I'll follow back immediately (:
    Kisses,

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  9. Love is about taking risks and learning from each failure. :)
    You'll have your time dear! For now, just be the glamorous self that you are! ;)

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  10. That cardigan is gorgeous! Really love ur look ^^
    xoxo

    Novelstyle

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  11. so true, when you love you must be ready to get hurt. There's no perfect relationship even in movies. I know you'll get over with it soon and start to remove the walls around you :) Nice blazer btw <3 :)

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  12. Nice outfit! Love your style! You look genius!
    Thanks for your sharing and posting!
    Have a nice day!


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  13. Ganda ng blazer. ^_^
    rinx
    http://theclosetqueenofandrogyny.blogspot.com

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  14. Your blazer is so unique! I love how bold it is. Fabulous outfit! I love how you add some personal details into your blog posts too. Very inspiring!

    Best,
    Christina

    looksbylau.blogspot.com

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  15. YOUR BLAZER AND BAG ARE SUPER CUTE!!

    P.S. THANKS FOR STOPPING BY MY BLOG; I REALLY APPRECIATE IT :)

    _kj | MEOWMEOW

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  16. hello darling u have a great blog, would u like to follow each other on gfc and facebook???I always follow back
    http://idareyoutobefashion.blogspot.ro/

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  17. love the outfit....your jacket is on point!

    Shalay| itsjustshalay.blogspot.com

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  18. Love your look,the blazer is amazing!!
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  19. Totally love your coat and bag babe. Great outift :)

    Kisses
    http://yourfashiontroubleshootingguide.blogspot.com ♥

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  20. that coat is gorgeous! and I love the bag too!
    xoxo
    http://dailyfashiondream.blogspot.com

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  21. Very nice outfit, I love to mix red with any other garments and with the animal print looks great!

    I am doing a great Christmas Free Gateway! hope u can be one of the lucky winners :) U can check it on my blog

    Regards,

    www.agirlinafrica.com

    Diana

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  22. You look gorgeous honey! Blazer is super cool!
    Bisou

    Viky --- MySecretFashionPoison

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  23. The blazer is to die for, I adore the design and colour so much! You look hot! ;)

    Take care always, love Christine ~ xo
    Chriissydollxo Blog | BlogLovin'

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  24. You've definitely got the 'dark glamour' look going for you!! Your real brave and have a lovely blog <3 Did you want to follow each other? If so just let us know :) xx

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  25. Beautiful outfit!!! The blazer is amazing, and I love those leopard shoes too!

    XOXO!!!

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  26. Love the blazer and the bag ! i wholeheartly agree with you about heartbreaks shaping us to different people and i am happy for you that you found someone else :)xx

    Ray xx
    www.fashwithray.blogspot.com

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